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Lay my tentacles in the crucible

Goal 1) Write BM&A3

  • My Goal: 500 WPD, 1500 WPW
  • Where I planned to be: I’m afraid to look
  • Where I am: 12906 words
  • On Target or Behind: Behind

How’s It Going:
-sighs-

Sorry for the radio silence. I’ve been seriously struggling with this. I could list several excuses, but the truth is, I’m in a funk. I’ve been stuck, hating everything I do write, and not wanting to keep going. I’ve been able to squeeze out at least a hundred or so words a day the last two weeks, but it’s been like trying to get the very last bit of toothpaste out of the tube.

I did some brainstorming during my lunch break on Wednesday and picked out some ideas that needed some fleshing out, and one of them really piqued my interest. So I’ve been able to make at least a little headway this week.

Guess who’s still a trash can

Goal 1) Write BM&A3

  • My Goal: 500 WPD, 1500 WPW
  • Where I planned to be: 12000 words
  • Where I am: 10794 words
  • On Target or Behind: Behind

How’s It Going:
Now I know why when one of my coworkers found out that I write novels somewhere between holding down a full-time job, being a serious crocheter, and a somewhat serious 3D printing enthusiast (and that’s only scratching the surface), he looked me dead in the eye and asked, “How do you have time?”

The secret is, I don’t. I really, really don’t. I’m always exhausted. I squeeze the living daylights out of every second I have and it’s never enough. If I had twice as many hours in a day, it wouldn’t be enough. So when I have to take a break, it’s painful, but I also know that not pausing sometimes will be even more painful in the long run.

All of that to say, I’m not trying to push myself to breaking here. Any progress is still progress.

Am I not everything you thought I should be?

Goal 1) Write BM&A3

  • My Goal: 500 WPD, 1500 WPW
  • Where I planned to be: 9000 words
  • Where I am: 9006 words
  • On Target or Behind: On Target

How’s It Going:
Just as suspected, I didn’t write shit on vacation. But that’s okay, because I always work in a buffer for my goals.

So I just picked up where I left off on Wednesday, caught up to where I was supposed to be the week before, and now I’m back on track.