Meilo’s World – Page 2 – Meilo Zaborowski: Author

-kicks down the door-

I’M FREE.

From braces, that is. After ~~80 years~~ 1036 days, today was the day I got them off. I was definitely not expecting it to happen today, but happy late birthday to me.

Every little piece you took of my soul

Goal 1) Revise TAP 2

My Goal: Finish one lesson every two weeks (roughly)
Where I planned to be: Lesson 20, roughly halfway
Where I am: Lesson 20, definitely more than halfway
On Target or Behind: On Target

How’s It Going:

We’re getting there.

On a personal note, I’ve been working through some stuff with my psychologist regarding my last relationship. I’ve learned some things about him, things he did to other people, the other side of the story from some folks he had falling outs with. And I’ve come to some… not so pleasant conclusions. But I’m still here, I still have my friends and family. I can’t change what happened, but I’ve accepted it for what it is, and all I can do is move forward.

And on the plus side? I have a killer line for the climax of TAP 3.

Exoskeletal junction at the railroad delayed

Goal 1) Revise TAP 2

My Goal: Finish one lesson every two weeks (roughly)
Where I planned to be: Lesson 17, 48/73 scenes in
Where I am: Lesson 17, 48/73 scenes in
On Target or Behind: On Target

How’s It Going:

Now that I’m going through these scenes in the order I decided works best, they’re falling together WAY better than I thought they would. It’s almost like I planned it that way.

I’m getting my furniture and the last of my stuff from Chris’ tomorrow. It still doesn’t feel real. I keep going back and forth between “I’m better off” and “Maybe after some time apart, things could be different.” Why is anything less than a catastrophic explosion so much more painful?

There’s actually a few scenes I’ve worked on the last few weeks that hit harder now, and just… yeah.

You were the one that I wasn’t supposed to lose

Goal 1) Revise TAP 2

My Goal: Finish one lesson every two weeks (roughly)
Where I planned to be: Lesson 17, 30/73 scenes in
Where I am: Lesson 17, 29/73 scenes in
On Target or Behind: Behind

How’s It Going:

It’s been rough. Not just the book, but just… Existing. I really think it’s a testament to the Celexa that I haven’t been a complete basket case. That I’ve been able to pick up rock tumbling again, and at least consider various other projects I could do. Like turning the spare bedroom into my craft room…

Anyway. I’m getting to the point in the story where I really needed to reorganize scenes, and add a few new ones. It’s weird to go from writing a brand new scene to barely touching the page in the next.

Back to square one

Goal 1) Revise TAP 2

My Goal: Finish one lesson every two weeks (roughly)
Where I planned to be: Lesson 17, 30/73 scenes in
Where I am: Lesson 17, 21/73 scenes in
On Target or Behind: Behind

How’s It Going:

Well, uh. This has been a rough week. My boyfriend and I broke up on Sunday and I had to move back in with my dad in pretty much one night. I’ve felt like shit since last week, with a headache pretty much every day now, and I’m not sure if it’s the stress or my new dosage of Adderall. And I was late to work twice for oversleeping.

All in all… At least I got something done on this. I’m exhausted and… Numb.